It is true what she said and almost heart breaking. I thought of Trevor how he squeezes in between me and the counter and pushes on my legs to get my attention in the kitchen. How he motions to me "com'on". I think of how Zac wants me to watch him play the
Sometimes those pleads and even nags for attention are annoying to me. I have other stuff to do, there is more to being me than playing and listening, but I have been thinking of these kids and how I should take more time with them. We take for granted their love for us. Or I should say that I take for granted their love for me and desire to be with me. There will come a day when Jenna may not want to share with me her latest creative idea, that Zac won't want to talk at all and that Trev will be more excited to go play ball with his buddies than throw it to me recklessly. Even later, they will grow up and have their own families and their lives will be busy. Then it will be Steve and I trying to see when it is good for them and their cute families for us to visit and let us in on their lives.
So even though it is not reasonable to let the world fall apart around me so that I can play and listen to my babies all the day long while they still want to play and talk, but my heart does feel fuller with my love for them and desire to be present for them. I do love my kids and am grateful to be a parent even in the difficult times, the trying phases and the needy days. I feel like making more eye contact, taking more time and hugging them longer.
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